So im writing this post to express really how mental disorders can affect anyone and how unsettling they are.
One reason to recovery from anorexia is ..
1. Recovery to go on lovely, long cycle trails in the sunshine.
2. Sometimes its makes you unease to realise that you have to let go of the manipulative disorder that has strongly attached to you. You may not think it is impossible for you to let go of it. You may think it is impossible for you to be happy. You may think it is impossible for you to not care about your weight or the number on the scale. It may seem impossible for you to eat 3 meals a day.
Everything seems impossible until its done. And it is true. I never thought i would recover. I never thought I would be happy. I thought i would never stop caring about the tiny portion feeling overwhelmed that it was still too much.
But things will get better. In little steps it will get easier and you will start caring less about the disorder. You start to be happier day by day slowly.
You have to be sick of being sick and tired to get better. I can promise you it will get better even though the amount of times i thought it wouldn’t and things will be awful forever. But they wont
It will be difficult at first but then it gets easier day by day. And each day you will become stronger than the day before. Months to come and you will look back and realise.
You may not always have a comfortable life and you will not always be able to solve all of the world’s problems at once but don’t ever underestimate the importance you can have because history has shown us that courage can be contagious and hope can take on a life of its own.